caught in the middle

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop--
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

-THE SHOW/LENKA

Nowadays I'm listening this song recently- I mean all the time. It's the only song explains me properly.

Life is too complicated for me these days. I'm so unhappy, exhausted and confused right now. Had an argument with 2 of my friends. I know that both of them will read this somehow but It's my blog and I don't care about what they will think or say about me. I'm sick of their problems. One of them made her decision long time ago but she is still thinking about what to do. Another one- oh I just don't want to think or write about her she makes me sick, main reason of my sadness. Don't want to talk to them until tomorrow, or a week, maybe more. 

Wished I had no friends instead of friends who makes me sad, loneliness sometimes brings happiness.

Don't be sad as I am tonight everyone, enjoy and live the moment.

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See you as soon as possible

BONNE NUIT

Lost in the moment

Hey everyone;
I see that you started to get interested to my blog so from now on I'll try to blog more recently. Good news that my dad is following me !
This week will be more easy than last week, just an english exam that I should worry. I suggest you all to open a blog to improve your english.

So far something is stuck on my mind. Why does everyone try to stick to some purpose and live on it? I look at the people I live with... One of them is living for her children, another working to get a scholarship, another going to school everyday just to satisfy her parents she doesn't even want to go to school? Why can't we be free, why can't we do anything we want?
Now I want to go outside, take a walk, drink hot chocolate, spend money for new clothes, go to a movie. I can't. It's all because that we all have a purpose while we are living. I want to break those strings and do what ever I like. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I just want to stay at home paint pictures, take photos, maybe go to forest for a long walk. We can't do this and I'm counting days for it. maybe it's far far away from now, but maybe it's soon as tomorrow, we all don't know yet...
But I think that next year these days I will plan my own life but just for this year the things are scheduled by my parents, and I hate to see that they are controling me. My plans for next year ? HUGE PLANS: making a fashion photoshoot, signing to a dance course and a painting course, learning a new language which will not be useful in the future because the languages that will be useful in the future is making me stressful all the time while I speak (french, english). I don't hate my parents but sometimes they need to relax and take it easy. They are with me since my birth so they should know that I'm a control freak even when they aren't controling me.

Whatever ! :) I just wrote about the things on my mind so far just please don't say that I'm boring.
I want to share a photo that fits for new year spirit while I leave the blog.

Release Me Release My Dreams

Hey people !
Isn't it a sweet, soft and calm sunday evening ha?
Yesterday morning when I woke up it was snowing outside. I was excited about playing snowball, making a snowman etc. but sadly it didn't sticked. I took photos of my sister, our christmas tree, breakfast table while it was snowing. Snow reminds me of my childhood sometimes. Snow means freedom to me and while I was little I didn't have something to care about I was free as a bird. I miss my childhood. At that time I wished I was older, powerful... Now all I wish is to go back to that time and enjoy. I know I'm being classic right now, everyone wants to go back to there childhood but I want more than anyone. It hurts me a lot when I see the fact that I'm getting older each day. I hate adults, I love children. I don't want to be someone that I hate. I love these photos enjoy and I hope that they will remind you of your own childhood.
PLEASE JUST DON'T NEVER EVER TAKE THESE PICTURES AND USE FOR BAD REASONS IT'S JUST AN INNOCENT CHILDS PHOTOS